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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

No goodbyes, just see you soon! :)

It was July 15 when it happened. It was 11pm, I was about to sleep already and Jason was still watching the television when his phone rang. It was one of their co-worker named, Jay. He said that someone called him from the 24 hour Fitness Gym saying that Kuya Bhok (Jason's older brother) passed out while playing basketball there.

Based on Jason's very calm response to the call, I did not worry much. Jason called the other house to ask if Kuya Bhok was there or if he's really at the gym, since it's already late. Jason had a feeling that it might be a prank call or something, so he wants to make sure. He then found out that Kuya Bhok wasn't really home. He rushed to the gym to see how he was doing. But when he got there, the paramedics has already brought Kuya Bhok to the hospital.

At 11:30, Jason informed me via text message that he's in the hospital, waiting to find out what is happening to Kuya Bhok. He said that the nurses told him that they're still checking on him. At that moment, I got scared. I all of a sudden felt like crying. I felt something's not right. In my head, the paramedics won't bring him to the hospital if he wasn't in a serious condition... I prayed. I prayed for his health. I prayed for the doctors and nurses.

Few minutes later, my phone rang. It was Jason... he was crying... and he said, "Bheb, wala na si Kuya Bhok! Wala na siya!" My whole body was shaking. I didn't know what to say or do. I was speechless. I was shocked! I couldn't believe it! It felt so unreal!

Then at the hospital, I saw the whole family bursting into tears... everyone was in pain... my heart was breaking... and finally, I saw Kuya Bhok. I wanted to hug and kiss him. I wanted to wake him up and tell him not to fool around! I wanted to scream! It was terrible! So I prayed again. I prayed for Mommy and Daddy. I prayed for Jason, Jeff, Joven, the kids, most especially Ate Jocelyn and Rain-Rain (Kuya Bhok's wife and 3 year old daughter). I prayed for comfort, strength, and wisdom.

Yes, Kuya Bhok is only 32 years old...very young, I know! But he lived a full life! He got to marry the woman that he truly loved, had a very beautiful daughter, was able to spend most of his time with his family and friends and was able to do what he enjoyed doing, play basketball. It was his time to go.

Today is Kuya Bhok's 4o days. Yes, it has been 40 days and the feeling is still mutual. Everyone in the family are still in pain and it hurts to see them broken, lost, and suffering. Although we will all miss Kuya Bhok so much... his jokes, his laughs, his silly faces, his smiles, and even if he left so many of us that loved him here on Earth... I also know for a fact that our God is an awesome Father! I know that Kuya Bhok is at peace now. He is in a much better place... with our Father and there's no greater thing than being with Him! I believe that God has a WONDERFUL purpose and that we can trust Him in everything. He knows what He's doing! Everything will be alright! Kuya Bhok may not be with us anymore physically but I am 100% sure that his memories will remain here in our hearts. He will always be remembered and loved.

Kuya Bhok, I know you're happier now and in good hands. I just want to thank you for all the memories you have shared with us and for the love. I love you so much! I will miss you! You know that Jason and I will take care of Ate Jocelyn and Rain Rain! So enjoy up there! No goodbyes, just see you soon!

Ate Jocelyn,
I know that the pain is unbearable and it's hard. But I want you to know that I am here for you. We (your family) are all here for you and Raine. You are not alone. You will never be alone. We are all in this together! Hang in there, I'm sure Kuya Bhok is also watching over us. I know he wants you to be happy as well. So never give up and always remember, God loves you! I love you! Fight! Fight! Fight! Ikaw pa, kaya mo 'to! ;)

Lord, as we go on with our lives, may you continue to give us the courage to face every trials. May you help, guide, and protect us. We trust none but You alone. Thank you so much for sharing Kuya Bhok to us! Thank you for the life that we have. THANK YOU for our family and friends! We love you.

-Glenda J.


simply kim said...

that was so sad. my condolences to you and to your family.. left you a kiss, girl. hope you kiss me back.

Dhemz said...

so sad...really sad...my deepest sympathy to your family...I lost my lolo last July 30...the pain is unbearable..am trying to accept the fact that he's gone and with the Father.

ang bata pa nya..am sure he is happy where he is right now...kawawa naman yung mag ina...may he will rest in peace.