"May integrity and honesty protect me, for I put my hope in you." Psalm 25:21 NLT

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Monday, September 12, 2011

His name is Xian Jyle.



When I found out that I was pregnant, I was shocked. I was shocked not because I didn't like it. It's because I didn't expect God would give me this kind of blessing, despite of everything I've done wrong to Him. I feel like I don't deserve something precious and beautiful like this. There are a lot of things going through my mind at that time and I was super scared. I know that God gave me this baby for a reason... for a wonderful reason.

Please don't get me wrong, I love babies and children and I've been dreaming of having one of my own too, but just not too soon. Not this soon. I just felt like Jason and I are both not ready with all the responsibilities yet, since we're newly weds... It's just scary because I know that this baby isn't really my property, I'm just a care taker. So thinking about all the responsibilities scares me a lot. I'm not sure if I can raise him well.



But I guess, God must've really seen something in me and Jason for us to qualify to be the parents of this baby... or for me to be his mother. I believe that if God has entrusted me with something like this, it only means that he believes in me and that He wants me to learn something from this experience. So who am I to question God's decisions?!

Xian Jyle, my son, is now 8 months old and yet whenever I looked at him, I still feel like it was just yesterday when he was kicking inside me. Time flies so fast! I'm still amazed with everything that has happened, from giving birth and now raising this healthy, very sweet, and handsome baby boy. For the past months, I've learned a lot! I've learned that being a mother/parent is something you cant just easily say, "forget it!" or "I quit!". It takes and needs a lot of patience, courage, hard work, dedication, understanding, care, love, etc. It's definitely life changing!




...while I'm in labor




Waking up every morning with my husband Jason and my son Xian Jyle next to me, IS a blessing! Looking back from everything I've been through, now I realized that this is really something that I've been wanting to be from the beginning, to be a MOMMY! I love and enjoy EVERYTHING about it and it's just making me a stronger and better person everyday! I am grateful! :)

Yes, it's a very tough job! But, it's also very REWARDING & FULFILLING! Something I wouldn't trade for anything in this world! So help me pray fellow blogger friends! May God give me wisdom and strength as I now raise this baby! May He help me and Jason to equip Jyle and lead him to fulfill his purpose in this world.



ALL the sleepless nights and tiring days are all worth it!



Indeed, BABIES brings not just happiness, BUT joy.



Isn't he adorable?



He enjoys taking pictures too, like Mommy! :)




-Glenda J.

3 comments:

simply kim said...

that was so touching.. you're one lucky girl to be blessed with a lovely family. left you a KI$$, girl! hope i get back, thanks!

by the way, do you mind checking out on In Love But Practical"?

G-Anne said...

Hi Glenda!

Cute baby boy u got there :)
I hope you still remember me.. hehe

God Bless!

Meryl (proud pinay) said...

Oh wow! Congratulations to you and to your hubby! Your baby is such a cutie!!!! Welcome to the world of motherhood =)